To my hero,
I have never met anyone like you before, and your belief in me was really something that I hadn’t encountered before. Your guidance and support for me was something that I will always treasure and hold close to my heart.
It’s not often you meet someone that you work with that makes such a huge impact on your life, and you did that for me. You made every day brighter, and gave me the direction and guidance to succeed. It would be an understatement to say that I miss you already, there is a hole in my heart that only you can fill. Every minute that I spent with you was a minute that I will cherish forever, minutes that made me a better person.
Your creativity and spice for life will always be unmatched, and I truly believe that there isn’t a single person that can do the job that you did… let alone come even close. I remember you talked about the things that you wanted to do – you were working on a screenplay and thinking of a platform for your next blog. You wanted everyone that you worked with to grow, to develop, and you never judged anyone based on problems that they were having or because they weren’t the person they could be. Instead you helped them grow into who they COULD be, and you saw potential in everyone you came in contact with.
If you hadn’t left when you did, you would be my mentor. I would be one of the luckiest people to have you guiding me through my professional life. But you didn’t get that chance. While I understand that you needed time to try and get better, to be with your friends and family – I was angry at the sickness that took you away from me. I was selfish. I didn’t feel that I had enough time with you, and I still don’t. How could cancer take someone that I care about away from me? I was confused. I hadn’t experienced this before. My feelings were all over the place. I was optimistic. I truly believed you would be back in the office, rested and healed in no time. I was wrong.
You truly have a beautiful soul, and you’re someone that I will never forget. Everything I learned from you I will keep with me forever, and I want you to know that you really changed my life. As I sit here drowning in my own tears, I know you are with me. You will be with me for the rest of my career, and for the rest of my life. I know you would be telling me not to worry about you, to keep fighting the good fight. You would tell me that my no-fear-no-bullshit attitude scared you a little bit, but you would also tell me that I can do whatever I want to do, that I am capable of anything. You would let me into your safe zone, tell me that whatever I say to you stays with you. That you would develop amnesia and that I can swear and yell all that I need to without feeling like I’m being judged.
I will be a very happy woman if I end up being HALF as amazing as you are, HALF as brilliant as you are, and HALF the person as you are. I know that you’re in better place now, surrounded by love and happiness – all the pain is gone. I hope that wherever you are, you know that I carry a piece of you with me. You are forever my mentor, forever my hero.
Rest In Peace Janet, I will never forget you.